Alohaaaa!!

Today i’m feeling super cheery, so thought i would blog!! 

Boobie Update:
The twins are doing great, i always feel like they’re my children when i say the twins but i guess they kind of are haha!! Right is still slightly bigger than my left, but i’m thinking that is just purely genetic, because there was only a 0.5cm difference between my boobs, it was pointless to put two different sizes in each one! And having carefully studied my pre BA photgraphs on my phone, the right boob was slightly bigger. And really it’s not noticeable, only to me, nobody else notices it unless i point it out, which i must stop haha!! So i’m starting to just accept it, as it isn’t huge and i don’t think it will bug me forever! 

I have my 3rd post-op tomorrow which is exciting, wondering if i will get told to massage then as nothing was mentioned at my last appointment a week out, but i was still pretty sore and swollen then so that’s probably why!! 

I can sleep on my side!!!! FINALLY!! I am not a back sleeper, at all, never have been, so for me to have to sleep on my back was torture, combine that with the pain i was in, double torture!! And even though at 1 week post op she said i could side sleep as long as i had lots of pillows and it was comfortable, it wasn’t haha. I kind of tried to convince myself i was side sleeping, by sleeping with my hips on the side and my chest facing the ceiling, but it wasn’t comfy, and now i can actually side sleep. Granted i have to have a LOT of cushions, two pillows for my head, one under my right side boob, one on top of my arms like against my chest (comfort thing), two along the back of me, i think these are more for cosyness now haha, but thats my set up, and it works so far! I’ve slept great the past few days i’ve been doing this!! I stayed in a hotel on Valentines and there was nowhere near as many pillows, and i couldn’t sleep properly so i am convinced the mass of pillows is helping haha!! Like sleeping in a cloud! 🙂

Ummmm, what else is there… ooh… incisions!! My incisions are looking great. I mean as far as i can tell, im no surgeon, but they’re small, always have been tiny, and the stitches are fully dissolved now so it just looks like two bits of skin melting together, gross but thats how its looking so far!! They’re a lot more hidden than they were to begin with! If you have me on JBI you will know that from my photographs!! I always feel like i’m not making much progress but compared to the photos i took a few days after my op i’m progressing really well! And loving my boobs more every day!! 

Bras! I am still in my sports bra, will be for another 3 weeks as my PS advises 6 weeks post op without underwire, which im fine with. I tried on my gift off my best friends from VS the other night, and it has underwire, and it felt so strange!! I’m almost sure the change back to a wired bra will not be fun haha! I don’t know if i mentioned but i purchased a gorgeous underwear set from ASOS, no underwire in the bra just a simple lacey style one, and i wore it on valentines, not all night, just in the hotel, and i loved it! It felt great and the boobs looked goooood 😀 

I complained a few times, sorry, about my right boob also giving me like a stretching pain in the side, this seems to have gone since saturday! Phew, thank god!! I was beginning to loose faith in the pain ever going away, but it has, touch wood… I’ve got a new sensation though, which is referred to as zingers i think? Were the nerves are all reattaching in my boob, like, to the skin, and it feels a bit like sunburn? Like numb and ‘raw’? Like my bra is rubbing, even though it isn’t, but i just take it off for an hour or so when i go home and i’m chilling out, and it usually sorts it out a bit. Failing that i put my ice pack on it for ten minutes to soothe it. Works a treat! 

I’m trying to think of things i may have missed in my lack of blogging. So sorry if you are an avid reader, i obviously have my reasons and i haven’t felt all that great as you all know. 🙂 But i’m getting good days and bad and i will keep you updated as much as possible from now on i promise! Oh and i will add some photos tonight, if i remember, sorry haha!! All well and good chatting about it but if you can’t see what use is it haha!! 

Thanks for the support ❤ you’re all wonderful!

HAPPY WEDNESDAY!!!!

Photos

I know i haven’t posted any post ops, other than the one of me in hospital, which lets face it is an awful photo. But there is a reason behind this. 

I love that i have this blog, it gives me more freedom than JBI and i can post whatever i want, when i want, about what i want, which is liberating. And not everybody wants to sign up to a forum and put themselves out there like myself, and many other women on JBI have. 

With all this being said, i feel that a lot of my blog readers are from JBI, my statistics are always referrals and i have a lot of post op pictures on there… in this sense i am thankful for the extreme anonymity as i have put my bare breasticles on there for the whole internet (member permitted) to see. 

I feel that i may put some new photos up, but they wont be nudes, as i have got my location and that noted in my profile on here, and i do know people would recognise my bedroom, my figure to a certain extent as i have always been a fitness junkie and posted progress pictures a lot! And while i’m 100% ready for you lot to see what my boobs look like… i don’t want the people local to me to see me in all my boobie glory aha! 

 

I will try and edit my nudes so that you can still see the difference but they’re not as incriminating 🙂

Today hasn’t been a good day :(

Today’s been one of my bad days. I woke up and instantly felt rubbish. I’ve had a good few days… Fri, Sat , Sun, Mon were all good days. I felt fantastic. Uncomfortable but I really did feel great!! And then yesterday night my sad feeling started to come back, that the worst part. That I felt so happy before hand. And all of a sudden I feel awful again.

I really wish I could fast forward time. Even just to Friday because I know I will be out and getting cheered up. But mainly so this uncomfortable feeling goes. And so my mood improves full time.

I dunno maybe I’m just feeling like this about my life in general and the BA is making that more apparent.

I’m not even making sense.

I feel like rubbish 😔

Outfit shopping…

I haven’t done anything light hearted and fun lately on this blog so i thought i would share with you my outfit ideas for this weekend 😀 Sorry if you follow solely for the BA posts, there will still be them i just feel like my blog has been taken over by my little bit of post-op depression this past two weeks and wanted to do something a bit cheerier, while i’m feeling happy 😀

Sooooo… it’s valentines day on friday, and although me and BF have been seeing each other on and off for 2 years this is the first valentines day we will spend together… i’m a bit gutted i can’t wear my new sexy VS bra for him yet but hey ho… few more weeks 😀
We’re going cinema, meal, drinks in town…

So… i’m just looking for an outfit that i feel good in, fits great, shows my boobs off a bit, without looking trashy, hides my thick sports bra straps, isn’t too dressy for the cinema, yet still dressy enough to go for a meal and then out for drinks (woo finally) in some nice bars….. Not asking for much then haha!

I am loving looking at all the low cut backless tops that previously i would have yearned for but never bought due to my tiny chest, but now… bring on the braless outfits!! I obviously won’t be wearing any of these on friday but i plan on buying for my birthday in march 😀

I’m thinking for friday i will wear black wet look leggings, with a new black and white shirt i just bought… probably… which doesn’t show the boobs off but definitely hides the sports bra… who knew it would be so hard to find clothes to cater for this!! I’m just stuck on shoes now because i don’t want to look too dressed up for the movies but then i want to look nice when we go for drinks… gahhh… men have it way easier, just throw on a shirt and jeans and bam… suitable for a

ny setting haha!!

ASOS Ultra Wet Look Leggings

ASOS Ultra Wet Look Leggings

ASOS Blouse with V-Neck In Mono Colourblock

ASOS Blouse with V-Neck In Mono Colourblock

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

So as you can see the top won’t really show off the twins but you can still see that i have boobs cos it’s v neck and the material should fall nicely over them! So exciting haha!! Unsure about shoes as i said, but HAVE to share these amazing ones… also from ASOS (i’m ASOS obsessed) …

ASOS PRAISE High Heels

ASOS PRAISE High Heels

Sorry if you don’t like this kind of post… i am sticking mostly to breast implant discussion, but i feel like it’s been feeling a bit negative lately so thought i’d share this with you all 🙂

Its been a while… sorry!

Gooooood Morning! It’s been a while hasn’t it?! I’m sorry, if you have been reading my blog you will know i’ve had a rough recovery so just been solely focusing on getting better the past week or so. And i’m glad to say i am finally feeling a little more like my old usual bubbly self. I still have down days but mostly i feel good, and i feel nowhere near as low as i did this time last week. It’s crazy, i’m like a different person… still not completely myself, but a better version than me last week!!

Down to the main thing… the boobs… whats happening with the twins haha!

Well… lefty seems to be loving life and has dropped a lot since even last week, even more so since surgery which was almost 2 weeks ago!! That first week was the longest, worst week of my life, but the second week has flown. I’m currently writing this from my desk… yep, back to work this morning which SUCKS but hey, girls got bills to pay haha!! Yes… lefty… sorry i went off on a tangent… so yeah, lefty is lower than righty, and although it still feels ‘uncomfortable’ like i’m wearing a heavily padded bra, that kind of pressure feeling, looking good so far. Very happy with leftys progress. Well done lefty 😀

Righty… my dominant boob. The nuisance child in my set of twins. My right seems to be lagging behind my left in recovery terms… it was swollen still up until about 4 days ago, which would have made me 9 days post op, its definitely still higher and dare i say bigger than my left, but when i had my post op last week they said i was doing well all things considering… the throwing up mainly, as this definitely had an effect on the swelling and pain i was going through. I know i should trust my PS and Nurses, but everyone has a little worry don’t they?! I guess i am just panicking because where lefty gives me no pain, just discomfort, and morning boob, righty gives me pain pretty much all the time, like at the side where the skin is stretching, i’m hoping this pain is just stretching pain and nothing more serious, nobody seems too worried which comforts and scares me at the same time haha. Hopefully this next week will bring more changes and righty will stop being so bloody stubborn!! I’ve noticed that when i run my fingers across my incisions in the shower, my right scar feels thicker and more prominent than my left, obviously they will both go down but i feel there may just be a bit more scar tissue in righty than lefty. Hopefully nothing to worry about as all that goes through my brain is CC!! 

I will post some pictures as i think the last one i posted was me in hospital, not a great shot even if you cant see my face haha!! 

I also went out this weekend!! Which was fun, i even had a sneaky glass or two of wine, which i probably shouldn’t have but by god do i deserve it, if i say so myself haha. I woke up with some serious morning boob yesterday, but no hangover, surprising haha!!

Also had my first sleepover with BF last night since my BA… have avoided it as i’ve still not been sleeping well and we were both worried about him knocking me in my sleep so soon after, but all was well. I’ve been trying to sleep on my side the past few nights, i create a sort of box around me with cushions and pillows, lean on my hip with my chest half facing the side, if that makes any sense, so last night i just put lots of pillows on my left side and BF went on the right side of me and spooned me/ lay right next to me all night to prop that side up. Successful sleepover!! 

Not to go into too much detail but it’s a common question i’ve noticed, i had sex 8 days post op, no major gymnastics, no feeling of the boobs obviously, but it was fine, didn’t bother the boobs too much and we have had it since and still been totally fine 🙂 

Hopefully i haven’t rambled on too much, probably have but i like to be detailed yano? Of course any questions you can write me on here or if you are a JBI lady then catch me on my profile on there reefybaby21 🙂 i will answer anything you have to ask so feel free 🙂

 

Thank you for reading, it means a lot to me 🙂 xx